t h e r e m i n i s c e n t s t a r - -
v2.o -star.
thereminiscentstar .
portia jolene ; posh * lene * (:
LALAPOLYPOCKETCHOONG ;
going 19 .
nafa svaf .
attached . =)
they call me starshine ; tinkerbell ; queenLALA*
191286
broken; and worthless .
hyper .
not what i seem to be .
tend to lose myself in thoughts .
daydreamerr .
sadistic .
black ; hotpeenk ; orange ; white ; purple .
lamee . extremely at times .
comforts people ; but yearns comfort from friends .
cynical .
imperfect .
stubborn .
bossy .
extremely fragile ;
has a soft mushy heart .
am redundant whereever i am . =)
yearns to fly *
je'taime .
the Man Up there . =))
him. =D
churchies .
EEYOREE !
monokuro boo .
cinnamoroll .
starrs .
my telescope . also known as my WIFE . =]
butterflies .
qing tian wawa .
windmills .
carousels .
dancing .
clubbing .
esplanade .
east coast .
southern most point .
changi airport .
marina south .
to be a unique !
blowing bubbles .
jewellery making . =D
taking black&white photographs .
photoshopp !
princess .
cousins shannon&jamie !
sad songs .
piano ; sax ; guitar . (but can't play any)
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
i'm currently being driven crazy.
i don't know what the fuck i'm doing no more. and yeah. that idea pretty much sucks doesn't it?
yupp. i should slowly sit here. rot. and.. waste my life away. ha. that's a joke. but its true. that my emotions are getting the better of me.
and the most unbelievable thing. i CANNOT BELIEVE i was THIS CLOSE to calling HER.
i. don't. know. why. i. wanted. to. do. so.
just shoot me. i mean it. HAH. talking shit bout a pretty sunset.
those precious words are NO LONGER precious. promises are just nothing but words once again.. cos they're meant to be broken. aren't THEY? =)
i'm over YOU. but its the dumb freaking memories that haunts.
maybe its just the vday thing. ha. getting my mind to think of memories that i THOUGHT were long ago swept under the carpet.
i'm watching someone cry. anf yet i can't do no nuts.. why? cos i'm the fucking reason she's crying. oh GREAT portia choong. this is just GREAT isn't it. FANTASTIC. haha. i think i'm exploding soon.. hopefully tmr would be a better day. and please take note. i said HOPEFULLY.
ain't gonna make candles. i think they're gonna be a disaster. and i'll prolly just. convieniently burn myself. ha. i find myself falling in love with my blade again. maybe i should start being my blades gf again. YAY. i should patch with my blade! ha. i sound like a moron. i know. =)
buh. that's all my head and almost-an-empty-space brain is telling me right now. ai's up next? should i watch? alright. i should. so i should stop. before the whole world runs away from me again.
maybe i shouldn't give myself a chance to be happy. haha. that's what i concluded. i must continue living this life to atone for my SINS. yeah.
;elysium.
10:00:00 PM
eternitywithYOU.
Zen Neeon .
new laptop .
Christian Dior - Dolce Vita .
Corrinne May's 2 albums .
Plumb's albums .
Dishwalla's albums .
Nicholas Spark's books .
Levis 501 & Diva Jeans .
Chronicles of Narnia .
a new starglobe . =|
my daisy rock star bass .
